I’ve been dating a lot. It’s new and interesting territory for me. I’ve always been a black and white kinda girl. Not liking anyone and then getting intensely obsessed with one person for years. In dating there is a lot of gray. A lot of
‘I like some things about you….’
‘what DOES my body want to do with yours?…’
It makes me realize that while my all-or-nothing style didn’t protect me from heartbreak, it did save me from having to do all these really hard things. Like figure out the subtle complexities and contradictions of what I feel, to communicate them accurately, to rejected and to be the rejector.
It’s a whole different world then going for the same person over and over with all you got no matter what they do to meet you, but I have this hunch that in the end it will serve me better. I’m certainly learning a lot and I made a video about it.
Lots of love and more to come ❤