The Traveler

Sometimes I miss myself. Where am I? Not out there. All those places of far-flung wildness where I went searching. Digging around for something I had no words for. No. Right here. Right here. All here. Except for that part of me, that persistent and necessary part of me, that’s still in all those places…

The Musician 

We don’t see each other often and so I take pleasure in the preparation. Night time languid at the mirror. A few extra minutes with make up. Freshly shaved. Sensitive. Stimulated. Even by the rub of my jeans.   .   Because I do not love him I love to watch him move around the…

True Fulfillment

Where do we turn when we are feeling unhappy and unsatisfied? It is easy to go looking around in our life for the cause of our feelings, but the sources may be in our lack of connection to something outside our day-to-day lives. Maybe true fulfillment comes from being with our unique connection to something…

Attraction or Projection?

I made this video about attraction on a weird day that couldn’t decide if it wanted to rain or shine. CHECK OUT THE VIDEO HERE!

*You Are Enough, Laugh A Lot, Keep Grinding*

Welcome to another video that I thought would be three minutes and ended up being twenty. If you’re interested in the cliff notes, it goes like this: You are enough. Laugh a lot. Keep Grinding. If you are curious about the astrology of leadership, how to make a sustainable revolution or the dangers of applying…

Does This Count As A Date?

It is late at night and I’m visiting my mom. Lying on her couch in San Fransisco long after she’s gone to bed. This trip rounds out a year of celibacy for me. A full-stop, romantic time-out after a particularly soul crushing break up. It’s been a good year. Reflective. Maybe even productive. But lonely…

The Curiosity Game

My oh My, A few years ago now I did a ten day vipassana mediation retreat. It was life changing and I recommend it to EVERYONE!! It’s up there on my very short list of things to do before you die along with psychedelics, tantric sex, foreign countries and swimming… Maybe forgiving and loving your…

The Idea of Woman: Unpacking Internalized Sexism

I am turning thirty in a few weeks and I am taking the opportunity to take stock and make some very clear choices. Specifically, I have a lot of bullshit floating around in me about what it means to be a woman. About who women are, who men are and who I am supposed to…

Men, Men, Men!! An Ode to David Deida… Kinda

There is a lot of guff about the New Age use of the words masculine and feminine. They don’t jive too well with the current political climate… or like, the women’s movement. But there is something archetypally essential about these distinctions. And if we can decouple them from genitalia and the socially-constructed gender roles for…

Tell Me: How The Fuck YOU DOIN??

HERE IS THE VIDEO! Lately, I have been listening to MUSIC. I have always been listening to music, but recently I have been LISTENING to music. Like it’s everything. I have been living inside music, letting it pick me up and carry me with its unique current to the bank of its world where I…

Diurnal

What is this video? Ah… something about mortality. Check it out HERE!

At the Creative Edge

There is a class of activities observed in animals that zoologists call ‘displacement behaviors.’ These happen when an animal is experiencing two conflicting desires. A crane will groom itself instead of fight another crane for limited nest-building reeds due to its desire for flock harmony. It is speculated that Bonobos will have sex instead of…